Sensitive viewers WARNING

Yesterday we came back home to Lux again. Elsa was moving out of her old room and up to the third floor which will be all hers. Mom told us a few things we weren’t allowed to move, like for example a massive big, very heavy wooden table she has upstairs. Then she left to see a friend and so we figured we could reorganize everything the way we wanted to and if we just made it look nice enough she’d have to agree with the changes. And so we spent hours getting her new studio together and it looks very nice now (I’ll show you guys photos later). The last thing we had to do was get the gigantic wooden table down, when we were almost there we dropped the table cause it was too heavy. It dropped right on my toes, especially on one of my toes and the pain.. THE PAIN! I didn’t know what to do with myself. I had a feeling something was wrong so I took my sock off and saw my whole nail laying there next to me. I though to myself “Weird, did I lose my nailpolish?” I looked at my fingernails and saw that nothing was scraped off and then I realized; My entire toe nail had been ripped off from the core of the nail with the skin and everything!! I FREAKED out and it was bleeding all over the room, on Elsa, dripping on the floor..everywhere.

I have NEVER had such pain ever in my life and I can actually endure a lot of pain. We covered my toe with a million layers of paper but it bled through within minutes, we covered it again but again, it bled through. I couldn’t move at all, not walk nor move my leg. After about three hours (still bleeding through everything) Mom helped me (I wouldn’t let anyone go near my toe) put bandage over it before going to sleep but I had to sleep downstairs seeing how I couldn’t move.

I couldn’t sleep all night because of how painful it was ALL NIGHT. This morning mom gave me something very strong that’s supposed to be calming.. so I slept a few hours but still with the worst pain ever. Now we had to take all the bandage off to see what it looked like and to put something new, more solid on to stop it from bleeding through. Of course the bandage was stuck in my not anymore toe but meat piece. Finally I put layers and layers of bandage on the toe and now I can leave it, at least for today. Mom managed to find me stronger painkillers and they do take the pain down a little and I’m so greatful for that. I hate not being able to walk or fetch things for myself.. =(

And I know that this post is disgusting but no matter how much blood freaks me out I’m a little fascinated by gross things like this too. Now you know something new about me! haha

No nail, just meat =S

My nail.. ew.

My sleeping bandage, this was after just a few minutes and you can already see the blood coming through

This morning.. All of the toes got banged up so they’re all sore and swollen.

My new, more modern bandage, makes me feel much more prettier than the previous one did haha.

GB! <3 T

What makes you happy?

Hi everyone! We’ve had such a nice weekend, it’s so good to be back home in Lux with my mom and sister. Yesterday we had some friends of my mom’s over, it was Dennis’ birthday so while they were away on a business meeting Elsa and I baked Dennis a cake, he got so surprised when we all started singing Happy Birthday bringing out the cake after dinner.

As you all might have noticed I don’t normally go out when in Sweden, only on special occasions and if I have to. Surely during the summers when I’m away somewhere I do go out a lot more, especially since most of my friends love going out. So I was happy to go back to Europe from the U.S for some calm and quiet. Though seeing how I had friends visiting in Sthlm I have been going out with them and I’ve had a lot of fun!

But I do prefere staying home with my mom (when in Lux) or my sister (when in Sweden). I feel it gives me so much more just spending quality time with close friends and family, people I love rather than go out where it might be fun but also very shallow.

So what I’m trying to say is that I am happy to enjoy some downtime at home and to just focus on cooking with my mom, go out for walks in the forest, listen to music, watch movies and eat a little too much of my mom’s delicious cooking:P

Time flies by and I’d rather spend it with people whom I truly like/love.

What makes you happy? Please share, it’s always interesting to hear what different people need to feel fulfilled.

Cakie

I got a haircut last week, cut it more than 10cm! It’s better for my hair though and it’ll grow out, meanwhile I enjoy having short hair:P

GB! <3 T

The good old times

Today has been a relaxed day at home, both Elsa and I are tired from the trip. After a very nice dinner we went through old photos and I found a few really cute ones..

Now time for bed, exhuasted!

My older brother Axel and I (Axel to the right). True happiness, look at our smiles.

If you’re not tall enough, make it happen anyway! Creative Tora

My older sister Sara and I, classy little ladies

I’m practicing my maternal instincts on Elsa, who look terrrified

Mum

I was a goofy retard already back then.

My brother Axel and I again

GB! <3 T

You guys are great!

I must say that I really appreciate you guys and I would love to know more about you. Since I’m back you have started to communicate more with me and I love that! It’s so interesting to know more about you, what you do, where you live etc. So if you don’t mind I’d love it if you guys would leave a comment telling me a bit about yourselves:)

GB! <3 T

(Remember the sign language photo shoot I did for Watch world? That issue is out and here’s one of the photos. Thought it was well suited for this “communication” post)

30 Day challenge

17. Something that you’re proud of.

Hm, something I’m proud of.. Well I’m proud of many things: my family, my life, myself. I’d say what’s more important for me is what I’m looking forward to being proud of, what I want to achieve in life and there are so many things I’d like to be better at. Like playing the piano, why did I quite my private lessons? Languages, I want to keep the languages I know up to get better and not forget. I want to be more involved politically etc.. I love thinking of things I want to master, achieve and learn. Surely one should stop for a minute and just be proud once in a while too.

GB! <3 T

30 Day Challenge

16. Something you always think “what if” about.

What if I’ll die today.

What if I should have gone for it.

What if I would have done that (I mostly think that about really bad ideas I sometimes get haha)

What if I will fail?

GB! <3 T

30 Day Challenge

15. Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality.

This is very interesting because I think I am a typical aquarian. Reading about aquarians is like reading about myself, both the negative and the positive side. Which type would you say you think I am, the shy or the exuberant?

Good

Friendly and humanitarian
Honest and loyal
Original and inventive
Independent and intellectual

On the dark side….

Intractable and contrary
Perverse and unpredictable
Unemotional and detached

“Aquarians basically possess strong and attractive personalities. They fall into two principle types: one shy, sensitive, gentle and patient; the other exuberant, lively and exhibitionist, sometimes hiding the considerable depths of their character under a cloak of frivolity. Both types are strong willed and forceful in their different ways and have strong convictions, though as they seek truth above all things, they are usually honest enough to change their opinions, however firmly held, if evidence comes to light which persuades them that they have been mistaken. They have a breadth of vision that brings diverse factors into a whole, and can see both sides of an argument without shilly-shallying as to which side to take. Consequently they are unprejudiced and tolerant of other points of view. This is because they can see the validity of the argument, even if they do not accept it themselves. Both types are humane, frank, serious minded, genial, refined, sometimes ethereal, and idealistic, though this last quality is tempered with a sensible practicality. They are quick, active and persevering without being self-assertive, and express themselves with reason, moderation and sometimes, a dry humor.

Both types need to retire from the world at times and to become temporary loners.

In spite of the often intensely magnetic, forthcoming and open personality of the more extrovert kind of Aquarian, and of their desire to help humanity, neither type makes friends easily. They sometimes appear to condescend to others and take too little trouble to cultivate the acquaintance of people who do not particularly appeal to them. They do not give themselves easily – perhaps their judgment of human nature is too good for that – and are sometimes accounted cold. But once they decide that someone is worthy of their friendship or love, they can exert an almost hypnotic and irresistible mental attraction on them and will themselves become tenacious friends or lovers, ready to sacrifice everything for their partners and be faithful to them for life. However, they are sometimes disappointed emotionally because their own high personal ideals cause them to demand more of others than is reasonable. And if they are deceived their anger is terrible. If disillusioned, they do not forgive.

Among the faults to which they are liable are fanatical eccentricity, wayward egotism, excessive detachment and an inclination to retreat from life and society, and a tendency to be extremely dogmatic in their opinions. Simmering anger and resentment, rudeness or, worse, a tense, threatening silence which may suddenly burst out in eruptions of extreme temper, these are all part of the negative side of the Aquarian.”

GB! <3 T

30 Day Challenge

13. Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it.

I’ve always been very comfortable with my body. I never really thought about it to be honest: what could be better, what is great etc. I love everything about myself, I am the way I am because I’m supposed to be this way and the only things I should change is striving towards being a genuine and good person and at peace with my personality.

So my teeth are a bit crooked, who cares? I do look a bit funny when I laugh but I’m not the one who has to see it, it’s the people I’m around so it’s not really something I go around thinking about. Of course the modeling makes you think more about how you actually look, you have to kind of evaluate yourself and get to know your looks in order to use it professionally. I’ve always had a good distance to negative thinking and it wasn’t until these past years I actually started thinking about it. Of course I want to be beautiful, but I’m not going to kill myself at the gym or not eat anything to achieve it..it’s not worth it for me. I don’t mind people doing it, I wish I had more discipline.

GB! <3 T

30 Day Challenge

12. 5 guys whom you find attractive.

*Joe Mangianello (speachless)

*Jude Law – I think he was sexier before, it feels like he’s lost his mo-jo a little?

*Robert Downey Jr – His eyes are unbelievably beautiful and he is very sexy.

I can’t come up with any more attractive guys.. Help?

GB! <3 T

30 Day Challenge

11. Your family.

Ok so my family. I have 3 siblings: an older sister Sara, an older brother Axel and a tiny little sister Elsa. My parents are Anna and Hubert. My mom lives in Luxemburg and my dad lives here in Sweden. I love them all to death and I’m lucky to have such amazing parents, my mother knows me better than myself and my father has the biggest heart you can imagine! Here are some photos of them:)

Dad

Mom

Sara

Axel

Elsa

GB! <3 T